"What if I turn into one of those really happy people who I can't stand?"   My mom replied "What's it matter?  You'll be happy!"   I had a hard time with that. I was thinking about buying a self-improvement program that promised extraordinary happiness.  I was 19 or 20.   I was angry.  I was depressed.  I wanted to change.   I didn't know how.   I resisted the very change I claimed I wanted.  What a mess ... I wanted something different for myself.  But I wasn't willing let go of something to … [Read more...]